Saturday, October 31, 2009
Today is Saturday and it's the last day of the course. Big thing, I was suppose to be the parade commander for the dismissal parade. But, it rained and Yongsheng said we'll have it in the New Foyer. So, it's just dressing and bersurai. Wth. And I was practicing the sequence of the dismissal parade with him just now. I wanted to get it right, and it rained. Am I lucky or am I lucky? Just as I was about to have the parade, it rained. It all links back to the original dismissal parade time at 1700, but I changed it to 1730 because they can't finish their tests. I just hope that maybe for next year's first training, I would be able to be the parade commander. I'm so ready for it, but well, at least I did something.
Sooo.. I didn't went for the CIP, I know. I missed out the fun and I skipped lunch. I stayed in the command post, polished boots, went through the NCO written test papers. I was rather tired, and I needed my best friend. But I got his brother who was gold in colour. During the tent pitching before lunch, something kinda bad happened and I had to somehow be in charged of both squads for awhile. Thanks for the trust, by the way!
'My' event is finally over, so soon. It's a pity squad 2 don't really know who I am, but well... At least they got their probation ranks. xD And I should really re-mark the NCO written test papers, it's been marked by 5 different people, with different answers. But at least squad 2 passed.
The sergeants in my squad also got promoted to staff sergeants. I'm happy, we're all staff sergeants now. So ya, got the LMSC certificate, first class drill badge (but my drills are kns), police knowledge badge. So ya, my uniform is going to be more heavy soon. I still can remember how was it like for it to be light.
I was suppose to meet him for my phone, but it turns out I overslept. Nevermind, at least I got to school on time. xD
I feel so weird today, I thought I could meet him for maybe say 3 minutes today for my phone, but I can't even get to see him for a second. And how the hell am I gonna survive for my STC and my Vietnam trip? AHHH!!! Well, I was like hugging myself because since it rained today, I had his jacket on. It's so comfy. I love the smell. I really hope to see you tomorrow, before your work, I don't mind sending you to Changi Village. Oh well, see you tomorrow! Oh yeah, nice collar.
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Friday, October 30, 2009
Whoaaa.. He's asleep right now. Thankfully, he invited me to a webcam session and yeap, I can see him being asleep. I can see, he's really sleep deprived. Awww.. This is too good to be true, I won't wanna switch my lappy off till he's awake. But well, I hope he won't be late for work. LOL! It'll be 0600 before he drop by for my phone. He's still wearing my shirt and I wonder, is it stinky? Hahaha. It's the owner's shirt that counts. Dang, if this continues, it's like getting love sick. Soooo, see you in the morning, love. Sleep tight!
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Today was the PTC with Mrs Tan. I was really nervous, and it seems like for me, the parents are fooling around and I'm the child who's worried. It seems like it was fast, and she nearly said something which she shouldn't have said and so did Mdm Goh, my Chinese teacher. Oh well, it passed... Gotta go back on Monday and Tuesday.
School's finally out and it's kinda sad that secondary 3 just passed, and I'm fighting for promotion. Sigh...
After PTC, I rushed to the interchange to meet him. I passed Shahrul, Farid, Syafiq and some other guys. They didn't spotted me, but Shahrul spotted me at last. I think Shahrul looks kinda disappointed, but too bad, he's late. After his bus came, I went off to Tampines 1 for my parents and my mom went off to work and I went to MacDonald's for my lunch takeaway and went home with my dad. All I can remember is, after having lunch, I fell asleep. My dad called me in to ask a favor for his papers. And I went to the sofa and I fell asleep instantly. Afterwards, I can't remember what happened and I woke up at about 5. The Simpsons are having a special one tomorrow. :O
I didn't expect him to finish work so early, so I went off to meet him for my dinner. It turns out, it was raining heavily. After getting dinner, we shared a umbrella back to my house to wash up lehhhhh.. LOL! It's the bubble tea shop aunty's umbrella. Haha. So ya, my parents' room window was wide open and of course, rain entered their room and I didn't know. Their window was always closed. And I gotta mop it, which I suck at it badly. Sigh.. What to do.. My parents. Haha. And hey dear, I'm sorry. My phone's with you. Ahhhh!!! I didn't fulfil my responsibilities to it. Dang... Oh well, at least I'll get it back before the course starts. Hahaha. And yeah, you're caught in action for falling asleep in front of the webcam. :D
Sooooo.. I gotta do these before I sleep:
- Mark the NCO written test papers
- Iron my skirt
- Get my full uniform ready
- Pack up my stuff needed for tomorrow
- See if the schedule is alright
And wait.. I don't plan to sleep. I have no alarm.. Dang... -.-
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Thursday, October 29, 2009
Well, well. Today's NCO course day #2. It was okay, I guess... But I still don't get it, if you see somebody busy and that somebody has actually have to do something important which you can help that somebody but you choose not to, so how could you blame it on that somebody? I just don't get it, it really didn't occured to my mind about it. Whatever it is, I don't really wanna care since the whole structure is like this already. When AAR (after action review, not All American Rejects!) is here, I'm not gonna utter a word, it makes no sense to me about it all. And so I became the I/C twice for the two dismissal parades. Whoaaaaaaaaa...
Today ended quite late, I guess. I talked to the 'old' alumni for Saturday and it turns out the alumnis are taking the squad and isn't it a rule that alumnis aren't allowed to 'touch' cadets? Whatever it is, I apperciated his help a lot. I guess, without his help I would be a lost NCO. Whoaaaaa, and the fireman's jacket on his bag is cool. :O
After everything, I went over to block 243 to meet him. Went to dinner, went to Open Plaza, went to Sunplaza Park, and went home.
I'm rather tired today, but I'm contented in a way. I don't feel like typing a long one. Maybe after the course? Well, Saturday would be my turn as parade commander and I'm nervous. I can't remember the pledge, but I'm gonna make it a good one. Wish me luck!!! ^^
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Today marks the day for NCO course. It's also the busiest day for this week. In the morning, there was this ceremony, but it's kinda like a pity I don't get my certificate. But what Mr Syam said really helped me a lot, and I really appreciate what he did. I sure do hope what he said was true to me and Syafiq. We were just freaking out just now.
The course today was rather successful, but there's always room for improvement, sounds familiar? Yeapp, that's what I remember from CI (NPCC) Steven. The unit feels kinda weird without him. Well, today went well, I guess... But, I learnt one important lesson today, don't bring toooo many stuff no matter who you are. Hey, I got my reasons for it. Hahahaha. And this 'old' alumni was here today, and he kept bothering me? He's nice, but annoying ever since sec 1 camp back in March. Hahaha.
Song leader session was kinda fast. It seems like the emcees have to do the job now and I wanna print out the song sheets. I have no clue how the order goes, but I do have a script in my head actually. That's why I didn't produce much stuff for the script. I just hope on the actual evening, it goes well. And it's still kinda shocking that I'm working with his junior, Sharifah.
Everything went well, but it seems like if I don't meet him everyday, it feels kinda empty. I knew he fell asleep and I wanted him to sleep because he MUST get all the sleep he needs. I didn't expect to meet him after everything, and I eventually got my chance when I was halfway through my dinner while watching All American Rejects on TV. LOL! We went to get my deep heating rub cream that he wanted me to buy (which I hope works for my shoulder) at the sinseh and of course, it's been awhile since I had my chocolate milk tea with no pearls. Heaven~ I really want it to get applied, my left shoulder feels 'handicapped'. It just feels kinda numb.
My new bag was told to be 'flashy' by Jia Hui. I feel proud to have it, not many people have that design. Hahaha. It brings out my character, right?
And so we're gonna meet at 0600 tomorrow! Woohoo!~
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I'm on panick mode. I'm still very much unprepared for NCO course tomorrow. The only reason because is, I'll be very, very busy tomorrow. It's the busiest day of the week. I'm also praying very hard that nothing goes wrong tomorrow. I'm worried, I really am. Though it's stated black and white that I'm the overall course coordinator, it does seem like it's that way. Sigh... I think this unit would be like this till the end of time. I used to look forward to this so much, but I think it's a pain now.
I polished my boots today and it can't shine like it used to anymore. It was as shiny as a CI's boots, okay... Zzz. But while I was polishing, I listen to Coldplay on my TV and my mom was instantly addicted to their song, Viva La Vida. It's a nice song, I'm glad that she likes it.
I slept the whole day and I'm really sorry for not meeting you in the morning! My eyes can't open at all. But, but I'll definitely meet you in the morning for the rest of the week. And I must say, the new bag looks good. Maybe we can trade it someday. Hahaha. But I still prefer mine, it's colourful! I know you're sleeping now, so you better get all the sleep you need. You're gonna have a busy weekend. And maybe let's try to meet up on Saturday?
And so, my day ends when I when to Popeye's to have dinner with my parents...
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Monday, October 26, 2009
I'm bored, so I'm doing everything twice. I think he fell asleep again, and I don't wanna disturb him because of his bad headache since last night. He's gonna get all the rest he needs. Any suggestions on what I should do? Maybe I should finally download iTunes after getting this lappy from my dad for 3 or 4 months now. I'm really bored, and I just wanna say that his jersey is around my head, and I'm hugging his jacket.
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I want to declare officially that red bull is my best friend! Red bull is from Austria too. Waaaaaa, look where my new best is from.. Woohoo~~
As I talked to Nadiah today over msn/ facebook, it feels so nice to talk to your primary school classmates. Now that she 'handed' over the pictures, it's Nora's turn. But I don't think it will be that soon. Hahaha.
Sooooooooo.. back to school. My sleeping time is getting more interesting to me, that's why I hereby declare Red Bull as my best friend. I met him at 0600 and I was pretty much like a zombie, I guess. And I can't be apart with your jersey!!! It's the owner that counts, not the jersey actually. Hahaha. I saw my results today in class, and I really have nothing to say about it. I did all I can, but I still failed. But at least I made improvement.
Shahrul, Syafiq, Qian Ying and I interviewed at least 8 or 9 potential mentors. Some of them are great, some of them are like mat, and some are just 'still'. We were fast than the other groups, but I think we got we wanted and we didn't want the kids to freak out or start to have a panic attack. And so... This Wednesday's ceremony starts at 11 and it'll be the last two befriender session. Finally, it's gonna be over.. Wooohoooo!!!
After school, I went to npcc room. But I was kinda in a panic mode because not many people were there and now I'm praying very hard that HIT course and NCO course doesn't have any hiccups anymore. It was really brain cracking when I had to discuss with the squad about the dates for HIT course and NCO course. I think the work is nearly done, what's left is to execute it.
After reaching home, I got knocked out for awhile, but I was awake again because my MP3 player was playing the whole time. I was really lazy to move, but still... I went to the meeting with the guys at the Open Plaza and they sorta bullied me to becoming the parade commander for Saturday. This is what you get for being the minority, and I have no regret about being the minority!!!
After the meeting, I took the train at around 1530, I guess. I was already late, but he didn't tell me! I was out at Clementi station for about 5 minutes or so, and I tapped my card again. And we're off to get the Dickies bag. Hoorah! I wanted it since last year, and I finally got it this year. It's really colourful, that's what I like but not many people have it, that's another thing. The best thing about this Dickies bag experience is that I might get to switch bags with my dearly beloved, so I have no issues with it. Hahahahaha. But it'll add a final touch with his floorball ball keychain so that I can constantly remind myself who I got this bag with. Ahahaha. Dang, I'm weird. It's cute to me, you should see it.
So, I guess I'm gonna use it for NCO course, STC, and the Vietnam trip. And I hope it doesn't ripe apart, just like what you said, because I'm gonna love it like how I love you. Pssssssssssst.. I love you more lah, but please don't let my bag know!~
HORAH!!!!!!!! I FINALLY OWN A DICKIES BAG!! IN YOUR FACE, DICKIES! xD
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Sunday, October 25, 2009
Right, my 2nd post for the day. Hahaha..
Hey my dear, I just want to let you know, you better eat something because I want you to take Panadol as soon as you can because I don't want you to have the headache in your head for too long. Listen to me for once~ It's for your own good. You might probably fall asleep too. Haha. But hey, your health matters most, so do take care of it, I don't you to fall sick. You're a tough man. Hahahaha! And dang, I'm gonna miss your jersey. :(
See you tomorrow morning, sayang~
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The difference between a market and a supermarket is that a market is usually wet and everything is fresh while a supermarket is air conditioned and everything is mostly packed properly.
Let's get back to today. I slept like a baby from 0300 to 1100. It rained and my mom didn't close the windows before she went to work and I had to mop the floor when I woke up, brilliant eh? When I woke up, I thought it was too late to meet him as he might be at work. Hahaha. I had my lunch and dang, I fell asleep on the sofa.
And I was awaken by his call and so it turns out that he's not working today! Dang, it's so confusing with his work schedule! His jersey was wrapped around my head and I'm like a bandit at home. Hahaha. And I thought we didn't have the opportunity to meet up today, but guess what? There was a opportunity and it was made by his mom. Soooo, I went over to his block in my bright yellow NPAP shirt with his jersey. Little did I know that when we headed to the north CC to change up, I saw Steven and Putra. It was kinda awkward and that had this cheeky smile.. Sigh, kids these days. If they don't ka chiau me about it, I'm happy. Lucky I didn't hold something in my hand.. Phew~
And so when we left NTUC and Watsons and heading to the escalator, it was kinda shocking, because I saw Putra and Xinyu. LOL! I admitted to more ''secrets'' and it turns out it's kinda like the same for the both of us. Hahaha. I also wanted to left my NPAP shirt in his bag on purpose but it turns out I really did forgot about it when I was at home. -.-
Tomorrow's the final briefing for NCO course 2009, and I hope the squad will cooperate with me, if not I'm gonna die of shock. LOL! I might be getting my Dickies bag tomorrow too, and I wonder what design should I get...
I also created a ''How well do you know me?'' quiz on facebook, and I don't think anybody can pass. Hahaha.
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Saturday, October 24, 2009
I slept at 2 yesterday and woke up at 6. And we went for a ''jog'' at Sunplaza Park. Hahaha. I enjoy time with him, but it's always never enough. I snuck out of the house early in the morning and I didn't expect my mom to be awake so soon, damn! But she didn't nag at me. Phew~ After I reached home at about 0800, I fell asleep and we agreed to meet around 0900, 0930.
Little did I know that I fell asleep on the coach and I only woke up at 0930 after receving a call from him. So it turns out that we both fell asleep. Hahaha, but I didn't do that on purpose, definitely. And eventually I went to the bus stop to meet him, in the clothes that I was wearing. Hahaha and now I adopted his style of buttoning the top and last button if there's 3 buttons on the shirt, cool huh? If you try this at home, you'll definitely know why I said that.
When I board the bus with him, it seems like the journey is more fast and when I went back, the journey is so slow. But I have my MP3 with me, so it isn't a problem.
I've completed the logistics list and I've selected the name for the muster parade's parade commander. And I'd like to say, thanks Melvin for choosing me!
I would also like to say that, I'm damn disappointed with my results and I have no idea whether if I can go to secondary 4. It's starting to worry me. But what can I do, now that exams are over, I can focus on NPCC.
Monday: Interview for Potential Mentors
Last two befrienders session
Final briefing for NCO course with Irfan
Tuesday: Promotion Day
Wednesday: Mentoring Certificate Ceremony
NCO Course Day #1
Song Leader Session
Thursday: NCO Course Day #2
Friday: Parent Teacher Conference
Saturday: CIP for newspaper collection
NCO Course Day #3
It's going to be a exciting week, next week. But I'm going to need my drug again.
P.S. I'M READY FOR A DICKIES BAG!!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
You're so awesome. I really can't describe you. I lost interest in guys when I first talked to you, and I realized that Singapore is really small, especially in Tampines. You know what I mean.. Hahaha. Where have you been all my life?!
Just sitting together makes me feel great. Time really flies with you. AHHH, it's just so fabulous that I can't stop thinking about you. You're so great to me.. :D
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY FREAKIN' LIFE?!?!
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It's been awhile now, and tons of stuff happened and it sure did make a big impact in my life. I given up on somebody I loved so much because I don't think that I deserve him at all because of my reasons. I found somebody else, and it's just so amazing. It's been countless times since I told you. I understand that it'll definitely be hard. But let me ask you a question, would you want to be stuck in a time of your life when you're really upset or do you want to struggle for awhile and carry on with your life so that you can find happiness? Which would you choose?
Well, I chose to struggle for awhile and carry on with my life, that's how I found my love and he's really awesome to me. What we shared was great, but in our relationship, it proved a lot of things. Even if he didn't exist, I would still leave you because of you and not because of him, I hope you get that understood. I don't even know if you hate or you're okay with me now, because judging by what you in facebook, you still hate me and why are you still being all nice on me? I'm cool with you, but do you have to be that way? I know you still care for me, and I appreciate it. But you're just like a hypocrite. Don't know the meaning? Look for it.
When I was with you, I really did love you a lot until you told me about my ''problem''. From then, I knew that I had to end it because it would really get out of hand. I felt so breathless. I left you at my own accord, I left you because I don't deserve you a single bit, not at all. But I met somebody who's just like me. Like what I told you before, it's the imperfect things that make you perfect for me. And it's really the imperfect things about him that makes him perfect for me. I love him so much, and I wonder where did he went all my life. When I was with you, that question didn't came across my mind at all. See the difference? I know I've done wrong when I realized it all along. I just can't understand why.
Till this day, I can't forget what I did, but to only remember that as a great memory. I really do know that I was wrong, and I believe that I don't have a problem at all. I gotta admit, though it's a instant hook up, I'm so happy that I chose to go against you and met him. He gave me the reason to not cheat on him, he made me lost interest in other guys except for him, he made me feel like I'm so darn right for him even though I did so many wrongs to hurt you. As I have mentioned, I'm cool with you. I'm aware you're not happy at all, and you might wanna have revenge. I don't give a damn about it, and I hope that you're cool with me too, because I'm cool with you. I just can't believe what you said to a 11 year old girl over facebook, seriously.
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