MY TRASH

Thursday, October 22, 2009

It's been awhile now, and tons of stuff happened and it sure did make a big impact in my life. I given up on somebody I loved so much because I don't think that I deserve him at all because of my reasons. I found somebody else, and it's just so amazing. It's been countless times since I told you. I understand that it'll definitely be hard. But let me ask you a question, would you want to be stuck in a time of your life when you're really upset or do you want to struggle for awhile and carry on with your life so that you can find happiness? Which would you choose?

Well, I chose to struggle for awhile and carry on with my life, that's how I found my love and he's really awesome to me. What we shared was great, but in our relationship, it proved a lot of things. Even if he didn't exist, I would still leave you because of you and not because of him, I hope you get that understood. I don't even know if you hate or you're okay with me now, because judging by what you in facebook, you still hate me and why are you still being all nice on me? I'm cool with you, but do you have to be that way? I know you still care for me, and I appreciate it. But you're just like a hypocrite. Don't know the meaning? Look for it.

When I was with you, I really did love you a lot until you told me about my ''problem''. From then, I knew that I had to end it because it would really get out of hand. I felt so breathless. I left you at my own accord, I left you because I don't deserve you a single bit, not at all. But I met somebody who's just like me. Like what I told you before, it's the imperfect things that make you perfect for me. And it's really the imperfect things about him that makes him perfect for me. I love him so much, and I wonder where did he went all my life. When I was with you, that question didn't came across my mind at all. See the difference? I know I've done wrong when I realized it all along. I just can't understand why.

Till this day, I can't forget what I did, but to only remember that as a great memory. I really do know that I was wrong, and I believe that I don't have a problem at all. I gotta admit, though it's a instant hook up, I'm so happy that I chose to go against you and met him. He gave me the reason to not cheat on him, he made me lost interest in other guys except for him, he made me feel like I'm so darn right for him even though I did so many wrongs to hurt you. As I have mentioned, I'm cool with you. I'm aware you're not happy at all, and you might wanna have revenge. I don't give a damn about it, and I hope that you're cool with me too, because I'm cool with you. I just can't believe what you said to a 11 year old girl over facebook, seriously.

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