MY TRASH

Sunday, May 30, 2010

YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S A BITCH! AND YOU'RE A ASSHOLE!

Sometimes I wonder, how do guys tolerate such bitchy girls. They're like some minature chihuahuas who always needs maintenance do their looks. -.-

I've been wondering how I should define 'friends' in my own dictionary. My dad told me some stuff which were rather nasty today and I disagree with what he said. I'm an only child, when I have problems I turn to friends for help. You still need friends at a point of your life, and I do treasure them. It's like whenever, wherever you need me, I'd be there and I know you would too. This is the kind of bond me and Syarifah share, and I truly do treasure it. Same goes to my wonderful friends too, like June which I met her today. It's wonderful to know that I still know her and we stil talk after 5 years of knowing each other. We share a beautiful bond together and I never want to break it apart.

I met June for today and we talked for quite a bit saying how we strong we were as friends, and I'm sure she doesn't want to break the bond too. Friends are definitely a important part of my life, and I hope my dad respects that and that I don't want to be some loser sitting alone all day at home doing nothing.

I enjoyed today with him, and we were like fighting in the middle of tampines mall.. LOL? And I nearly got a broken neck.. ):

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

Dear Rasrimin,

I'm glad if you see this, and if you don't, then well, it might be a secret. Trying to except that you do exsist in my life makes me feel like I've been a long, long dream. The way we hooked up is simply unbelievable to me even till today, after 7 months. You weren't exactly the guy that I was dreaming about or expect, but you are who you are, and I love you for that. I don't know what is about you, you're just so wonderful to me. Many of my friends said that we won't last till this far, and well, we proved them wrong. And so, many of my friends are happy for me because I have you. My juniors can even ask this question, 'How can Heather's boyfriend and her stay together despite the difference in religion?' This might be something special, right?

The way we met is really unbelievable, because of the fact that even though we knew each other over the internet, we didn't expect that we lived so close to each other. You are pratically like a dream come true for me, or is it? Though you deny this always, I never did imagined that we'd fall in love immediately.

When I lost my motivation to study after getting a experience of nearly getting retained, you found the motivation back for me to study. I was really touched by what you said, and you gave me your report books to look through whenever I want to give up because you didn't want me to be like you. No guy in my history of living in 16 years ever helped me on it. And of course, I was touched by what you said and do so it did motivated me to do well in the beginning of the year.

I met you when I was only 15, but till today I ask myself, what is it about you that is so special to me? Well, I don't know about it. I will never know and neither will you. Maybe at the age of 15, I had already possessed the maturity to think about this and so many I've experienced so many different things with different guys. You were a simple guy when I met you, and till today you're still the simple guy. Life can be simple if you want it to be, and I'm glad that this is how you want it to be. Whenever we argue or quarrel, you'd end up smiling, that's how sweet we are, right? That's what happened to my dad when he quarrells with my mom.

I just can't express how I feel now towards you, and it might be too early to say so especially nobody knows what's gonna happen in the future. The future is highly unpredictable, and well, life is indeed full of choices. Make the right choice, and you'll have a awesome life. But if you made the wrong one, I'm sorry because one horrible thing might lead to other horrible things. And in my life, I did make the right choice of being with you. Don't argue back with me now, because I love you so much that you can't even know how much it is.

When you broke my heart about 2 and a half months ago, I came to realize how fragile we actually are, and I cam to realize how precious you are to me. It actually gives a 'preview' of how I would be like when I live my life without you. I was screaming in pain, as the pain just won't go away from my heart. I just hope that you know, think before what you say and stuff. Till today, it creates a very big impact on me.

I say things to you that I normally don't say to the opposite sex, and for what I said to you, it's definitely true. And I'm seriously glad that you can except me for who I am, despite my past with those flings and affiars I had. My past is something that I would never forget, because it made me of who I am.

I love every single thing about you, and even down to you being pissed off at me. I now know what I can use against you when you're pissed off. And don't forget what I gave you for Valentine's Day!

My point of saying all this is because I want to let you know that even if there's a day where we go our seperate ways, you'd definitely be stuck in my mind for a long, long, long time. This is how special you are and how you make me come to realize things in life. Like what you said, sometimes you won't dare talk back to me when we argue, but hey, if you're unhappy, please speak up. If you don't nobody will ever know how you feel and why'd you feel so unhappy.

I want to say so much to you always, but just by looking at you warms up myself and I just feel so fuzzy when I hold on to you. I wanna say that, when you say you won't ever leave me, make sure you don't ever leave me. If you think that you're going our seperate ways in the near future, it's best for you not to say it at all and just enjoy this time being together. I'm not trying to hint anything here, but I just don't want you making empty promises.

Being with you is the best thing ever yet, and if we really do have a future together, I sure do hope that you're ready to fight for what you and I believe, and not just give up with a snap of our fingers. If you don't have a future together, it's alright to me actually, because just one day, I have to except it.

I love you more than you do love me. :D

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Saturday, May 22, 2010

I had full of thoughts all day long in my head, especially after I passed out. And I'm glad that nobody comes here, so I can say whatever I want.

Dear Squad 3 of 2010,

I love you guys all dearly, I really do. I lost interest in NPCC a few months ago, and I ask myself, what is about NPCC that I enjoy and why am I even here with you guys in full uniform? Well, NPCC is just another CCA to enjoy, it'll be a great memory for me when I graduate from the school. And I especially wanna thank your squad for it, because you are actually the motivation for me to stay on because I wanted to improve you guys, and teach you my grandmother stories. You guys made me realize that NPCC is just another CCA and that it's the people inside it, that counts. You cleared up my mind.

It's rather sad that I've been with you guys for less than 6 months, but hey, I'm glad that at least I know all of you by name, and you guys respect me for who I am, and not because of my rank. I'm here to gain your respect, and I finally did. As I pass out on Friday, you guys were really stuck on my mind.

Also, I understand that some of us from NPCC, seriously don't respect NCC at all. As you might have know, in our school, NPCC and NCC has been enemies way before we were in this school, and I just want you guys to equally repsect NCC like how I respect them. Disliking NCC or even looking down on them is really useless, because it's the people that might have spoilt the image, not the CCA. They're just as fun as us, and we are in no position to look down on them.

I hope you guys really do remember what I taught you, even if it's just a little bit. I do hope that I did made a difference or a change in your NPCC lives.

THANK YOU!!

3 and a half years of NPCC is now gone, and whoaaaa.. I'm very touched with what Sir Steven said.. True, we have to begin a new chapter in our lives, and well, I just found that 'new chapter'. He's in my heart all along.. ;)
Well back to normal stuff now...

I am rather bothered by how everyone around is today. If you can't or don't want to, just say no. Is it so hard? See first how, let you know later always doesn't happen. If you sincerly do want to say it, just say it. Don't say for the sake of saying it. Zzzz..

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Saturday, May 15, 2010

She hurt my feelings.. Somebody slap her.. )': She called me a tagboardless person. But not having a tagboard does have its pros and cons. And I just don't like to have one, I'd like to be the minority. :D

A lot of events has passed and I'm sure gonna miss them. Especially NPCC with squad 3. T.T I don't know about them, but there is just something about them that made me feel in love with them even though I don't take charge of them. What is it about squad 3 that I adore?!?!?!!!! I hope to see them turning into somebody great in the unit in future. Be it in unit or what, I hope to see them becoming a better person. OH HOW I MUCH I LOVE YOU!!

Today was a rather boring Saturday. But well, somehow I'm happy about today because I made Clive scream like a little girl. AHAHAHAHA!! Surprise, surprise, CLIVE! xD You owe me big time.

School resumes on Wednesday for me and I must say... From Thursday after the LC, all the way at this point of time, I had been doing POA. SURPRISNGLY. It's after the mid years, and I just couldn't care less about the mid years. I did half of my POA 10 year series and it feels like a accomplishment! WEEEEEEE! I'm still gonna get screwed by Ms Ng, so errrrr.. I DON'T CARE?!?!?!! I'm just doing what is right here, so yeaaaaaa..

ISABELLE TAN HAI NING, WATCH ME AS I REVIVE MY BLOG!!!

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