MY TRASH

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Things change very unexpectly always, full of uncertainty. There's much tension going on between me and some people who I used to be friends with them dearly. Like what Qian Ying said, hating somebody is really tiring, and I do agree with her.

People change really unexpectly and I think I lost my best guy friend from class. He said he change and when he feels like talking to me, he would. Wtf? I thought we were friends, how could you just change overnight? The phrase, 'I changed...' is really strong, and I hope you know what you meant by it. You're such a snoob now, and I hope you realize it with your new attitude, jerk... Nice talking to you.

Its about time I did something to me and her, and when Mr Goh talked to me last night over facebook, I realize how important this can be. There has been a whole lot of tension going on between me and you and I'm sure we did share a fair bit of hatred between each other. After all these years, I must congraulate you for being so successful in NPCC, while I'm not. And for your speech during our POP, I thank you for still remembering me as part of squad 4, 2010. I know I cearly suck at my own profession, and I'm just myself when we have trainings, I'd change for myself, not for others. And I'm just glad that some of the sec 3s know do respect me for who I am, not for my rank. Does it occur to you on why the juniors do respect you? Is it because of your rank or just because of yourself? Just so you know, the picture that we first took together in the no.1 uniform for 080808, is still on my frige, but I think it's about time to take it down, right? Honestly, I always have this feeling that I want to catch up with things with you, but I just can't do it. It's like when I see you, you're already so happy with the boys and it just make no sense when I start talking to you. When I first see you hang around with the boys, I'm glad. And well, I am sorry to you and all others that my friendship with you just can't workout. Maybe it could, but we just don't bother. I'd really love to settle this matter between you and me, but there's just this force in me that pulls me back. I really don't know if you'd turn into a bitch against me when I want to resolve it, it's just so uncertain. I never could have imagine this but, yeaaaaaa, I sure do miss the times with you.

I had this family dinner thing on Saturday, and I'm amazed with myself, I can't seem to speak a word to my cousins. My dad really want me to bond well with them, because the fear of his only daughter being alone in the world after her parents is gone seems to haunt him too much. And I predict that when the time is here, and my parents are both gone, I am gonna be all alone in the world and when I do have problems, I'd turn to my friends. Disaster.. And and and, I do want to do something about it too..

My mind is about to rot.. T.T

For all the thoughts and nonsense that I gave to Raspberry, he still can accept it. What a guy, what a guy... And I like Raspberry now, sweet, sweet name. Great meaning to it too. AHAHAHAHAH!!! There's been a lot of frustrations going around me now, and sometimes, I just want you and I to solve it together, it's what's best. And I thought of a new line! I love you way so much that you never could have imagined how much I love you. (((((:

I WANT DR MARTIN'S BOOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

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