MY TRASH

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Syarr and I are thinking, are we mistakes to the ones we love dearly? Sometimes girls just need attention from their significant other, even for the most damn matured girls you ever know.

For what exactly is the attention I'm talking about? I'm not talking about those girls who are attention seekers, but those who really do need some listening ear to listen to them whine.

I might be really very matured to you, indifferent from other girls, but please, please, please I do need attention too. GET THAT IN YOUR BRAIN!

I'm getting rather pissed off today, my dad made a impromptu decision on getting the air con servicemen to come over for his air conditioning unit in his room. For my air conditioning unit, there wasn't any problem, because I don't use it often. xD

What I'm trying to say is that, its not that I don't want to wait for the servicemen, but it was really out of the blue. I heard mom mentioning that you'd ask them to come over on Thursday, but after I made plans with my classmate, you told me to stay at home instead. So, fine... I stayed at home and tomorrow, I have to stay at home too. Please just don't make any dumb impromptu decisions.

I've been wanting to tell you this... And I'm pissed off deep down on Tuesday, because you choose not to listen. It's true that I'm still a little girl, but hey, I'm gonna end secondary school life at the end of the year. I might never know how tiring it is for you to work, but I do admire you on that. No work = no money, that's what you said. Sometimes when you're just free, I'd really LOVE to have you by my side. I don't want to drift apart from you, the feeling sucks. I don't want a silent breakup to happen. I need you always, and I want you to know that.

It's so god damned hard to even get you over to just chill and have some drinks. You won't even spend a single cent, what's the big issue here? You told me that you spend money like water, but have it occur to you that you DO NEED TO spend the money on your necessities? Have nice talk with your mom, and everything would be cleared. If you don't, do you think it can be solved? Do you even want the damn problem to be burdened on you even when you get married and live outside? TALK TO YOUR MOM. TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL. If you don't, what's the point of doing all these stuff for her? If you don't clear this up with your mom, and keep whining about it to me, I can listen to you whine all day, but can you? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. TALK TO YOUR MOM. Well, I don't know your family, BECAUSE THEY DON'T KNOW THAT HEATHER FOO EXIST, AND THAT SHE IS THE GIRL WHO LOVE THEIR SON SO DARN MUCH THAT HE NEVER COULD HAVE IMAGINED IT.

I'm always there when you need me by your request... And even right by your side when you don't need me by your side. But why aren't you by my side when you need me just for the most simplest thing by getting breakfast? Or even sending me to school? To be frank, I just love it when I rush out of class when the bell rings to cross over the road to see you. And I curse and swear the moment I missed your calls. Do you know how much you mean to me?

How long must you wait for it?

You are the best thing that has ever happen to me, I saw all the 'choices' my mom mentioned... And I still want you. I thought that I was the best thing that ever happened to you, but it never did show... I thought I was someone very different from other girls that you would be a different guy. Quit saying that you know, you know. What do you know? SOLVE THE DARN PROBLEM WITH ME, DON'T SAY NO.

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