MY TRASH

Sunday, September 19, 2010

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last weekend felt like a holiday, and I haven't got much sleep. How am I gonna go to school like this? I'm sure the rest are feeling the same too.

I slept at 1, thanks to Das-man and woke up at 8. The rest of the day was pretty much fucked up because my dad has been criticizing about me or some other things the whole time. I'm not spread any hatred message or what, but if he can do a better job, it's great. Instead of criticizing all day long, he himself perhaps should do something about it instead of yanking. And I'm sorry, I saw my cousins as though like they're strangers to me now. I don't know what's wrong with me being with them, I lost the bond. So quit talking behind my back to the others, I lost the damned bond, no connections, no nothing.

After getting home, it's like for the first ever time, it's like a sin to sleep on the sofa. And I really wanna bleach and scrub my tongue and throw up whatever I ate in the morning.. It made me felt so sick, even mom agrees!

The year now is 2010. 10 years ago, I was 6, enjoying my kindgeraten years. And I still remember that when I'm younger, whenever I take the train and pass Simei to Tanah Merah, I told my parents that that's gonna be my future school. That school is ITE Simei, and it's rather unbelievable for me that I'm gonna persue my studies there next year, that is unless if I get in there and it seems like I'm fighting with every other NA student to get there. Time flies... and 10 years ago, I was a shy little girl. But look at me now! :D

The future is still distant, but I'm afraid of it. I know things can't go my way, and life isn't fair. But well, I still hope for whatever that's most likely to come true. And there are indeed some people in my life who I don't want to loose at this point of time. I'm afraid of my own future, ain't that hilarious? Be it another 10 or 20 years later, I don't want to be a working class regretting not living my life. And after today being at my relative's house, I find that it's still best to have more than 1 children, because he/she might be bored while being at your relative's house. It happened to me, I'm an only child and I was bored to death at my relative's house. So, I'm gonna make sure history doesn't repeat itself even though it's too early to talk about it. First girl's gonna be Farrah! First boy's gonna be Billie! -.-

Well... Another thing is, I'm glad that Alfian and I have resolved everything. And he finally know how precious friends can be. Slow.. DASANI SUCK!!

P.S. This was written on Sunday night, but my lappy was a bitch, it blacked out. -.-

As I close my eyes before I sleep, your face appeared and left me a smile. :)

It BLOWed up at 8:16 AM